I feel like it’s been long enough for an update.  I also feel like pointing out many things that have been on my mind since writing that previous entry.  And third, I feel like I need to rinse my mouth again.  Why? Because damn that toothpaste aftertaste.  Crap’s kinda’ nasty, it always keeps me from drinking just about anything for fear that whatever I drink will taste like whatever remnants of said toothpaste aftertaste.

The solution?  Mustard or peanut butter.  Mustard’s strong and bitter, so eating it lessens the aftertaste.  Peanut butter works too since it’s thick and lets me override those toothpaste taste particle thingies on my tongue.  Sure, I could just spend more time scrubbing my tongue after brushing, thus, eliminating the source of that toothpaste aftertaste, but my tongue can only handle so much scrubbing before I go mad.

So that’s one solution, how about those other feelings at the start of this piece? Let’s go into this.

Yes, this has been on my mind ever since I finished the recent post.  It feels like the obvious elephant in the room that needs addressing.  “Where have you been all this time, and what have you been doing?”  Well, random person who may or may not be thinking that until now, I’ve been exploring myself.  I started wondering why I wanted to stop writing Tales from the Media Shelf and, instead, go back to stream of consciousness pieces like the early entries.

Long story short, I didn’t want to fall into patterns behind reviewing.  I had fun writing them for a while, but it was during the Roger Rabbit review when I started to get the impression that the Tales from the Media Shelf series would run dry after a while.  I didn’t want my love for movies and writing to feel like something I had to force myself to do, so I started wanting to go back to free-form writing.

The funny thing about that is that attempts at writing in the free-form way felt like I was forcing myself to be random and spontaneous for the sake of being random and spontaneous.  I had to step back and look at not only the early writings I’m fond of, but also myself.  Sure, the spontaneity and looseness of those writings was fun, but it wasn’t just about that.  I had to take it all apart.

What started as ideas and notes on why I like to approach that kind of writing turned into a lot of introspection and personal notes as to why I like to express myself the way I do in any medium, be it the written form or in the flesh.  I started writing notes from this and figured I could tap into this to lessen and maybe even avoid writer’s block.  I started getting ideas for how to inject more life into my writing and have fun exploring my thoughts.  I found it really fun exploring all this, and I feel like I could spend a whole year doing more of it, always learning something new, but I’ve done enough research and exploring for now.  I’m ready to not only write again, but I’m also ready to put this to use in other things.

In summation, it felt like I went on an unexpected & prolonged break that I needed more than I thought.  I’ve gained a lot of knowledge about myself and other things I want to do, and I’ll continue learning things, but now it’s time to do what I’ve been wanting to do for a long time and start creating.

So hang around, we’re just getting started. 🙂

 

Addendum:  While I will be halting Tales from the Media Shelf in its previous form, it won’t exactly disappear.  It will come back in the future in a totally different format, but for now I’m going to keep things simple.  And I’ll still talk about movies, but it’ll be more natural.