Dang. I mean… it hasn’t felt that long, but there it is. And sure, there were a few little periods in which I wasn’t writing (either due to job hunting or stress), but time has passed and here I am. Six years have passed since I launched this thing, and though the activity kind of lessened here and there, I never fully lost my drive.

Normally, I’d talk about my growth as a blogger in a reflection piece like this. But because there’s more personal growth than there is blog growth, this time around feels different. It’s definitely different in a good way, though. My last few entries were solely personal pieces, with the most recent one easily being the most personal of them all.

And now, since a lot of the weight has been lifted, I feel like I can return to the fun stuff. It’s not without change, though. Everything I’ve ever felt on that transformation & introspective level will fuel (and even influence) fun projects. It will be interesting to see how everything turns out, and I’m excited to take things further.

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I definitely had to convince myself to write about what I’d been feeling during the pandemic. I had to really get into the idea of, “I need to open up about my feelings right now if I’m going to process things and move on.”

I’m glad I took the time to write and edit the previous entry. It wasn’t easy, and there was a small part of me that said, “Hold off on this,” but I’m a believer in following my intuition; and my intuition told me, “Just post it, someone else might be going through the same thing and now is the time to voice your thoughts.”

When people say that writing is therapeutic, they’re not kidding around. It really does something magical if you know what to write. Sometimes, it’s not about writing a certain way (though having an understanding of writing techniques can help). Many times, it’s more about the act of writing and committing to it.

Writing certain things last year (both, in blog entries and notebooks full of affirmations) helped me tap into the success-driven mindset that got me the job I have now. And writing the recent stuff has helped me to the point where I now have a new friend. So now, I wonder where writing will take me next.

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Weirdly enough, I only realized just now that I barely did a few entries this year. I knew that I wasn’t writing a lot due to work, but including this post, there’s four so far for the year. That will grow, of course, so I’m not going to dwell on this. And plus, the entries for this year have all been about my own growth as a person, so I don’t have any regrets.

I’m trying not to think about what I could’ve been writing. I mean sure, in a “perfect” world, I would’ve written Sonic-centered entries during February in anticipation of the Sonic movie; National Women’s Month-themed entries during March, celebrity tributes to those who have passed on, and I would’ve been doing Star Wars entries throughout the month of May. But honestly, I’m glad that I took the time to figure out and write my personal thoughts & feelings in regards to the pandemic and how that was affecting me.

I’m also glad that I took the time to acknowledge other personal thoughts in regards to goals that are, admittedly, out of reach for me at the moment. I’d sometimes fall into a trap or cycle of thoughts that would make me wonder if I’d ever accomplish something at all; but ultimately, I am optimistic that I’ll have a fulfilled life.

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I’ve already talked about where I want to take the blog & what I want to do creatively. Anyone who’s been following me for a while knows that I want to move into video production, podcasting, and learn & incorporate new skills into my content creation plan. But right now, I’m thinking about many personal goals.

I definitely want to move out and have my own place. I’d also love to make more friends. I want to legally change my name and be the me I’ve always wanted to be, having more unique experiences that will make me feel truly alive. And, on top of all that, I especially want to be able to share all that and more with someone, eventually having a girlfriend.

Basically, I want to change my life more. Getting the job that I have now has already given me more optimism, confidence, and the start of a new chapter in my life. And now, I want to plant the seeds for more chapters.

There’s not much else to add to this, but now you all know what drives me. Wanting that life is the reason I am more focused on working, but I also feel like I can return to the fun lighthearted blog entries. I’ll still do more stuff like this when inspiration strikes, so there will be a nice balance of everything.

Thank you for reading! It’s been an interesting and sometimes crazy six years, but there’s plenty of things I got coming along the way and I can’t wait to share them with you. So until next time, keep on trucking along, have faith in yourself, and remember that you can accomplish anything.

Catch ya next time! o/