Okay… I wanna change things up even more ’round here. I’m still taking in the fact that I’m showing my face the way I always wanted to, and I’m finally happy that I have reached more personal growth. Although it’s taking a little longer than I expected, I am growing my social life. I mean, I’m doing it as best as I can given that there’s a pandemic.

And not everyone may want to be a part of it (and I do have to remind myself of that), but I’m happy to have at least a few friends that I’m in touch with right now. I’m learning more about who I really click with, and that itself is motivating me to keep growing those connections, share that here, and then share this with them. It probably sounds weird, but despite trying to keep this separate from personal life & work at first, now I don’t want to keep the two separated all that much. Living a double-life was already something I did in high school and, in hindsight, that really fucked me up.

Plus, I feel like I want to be more open about this online stuff with co-workers and open up just enough (hopefully without overwhelming them). That itself is something I’m still working on, but overall I’m relieved that I’ve opened up in recent entries and has taken a lot of weight off my shoulders in getting to know others.

So now for that announcement… the blog. I’m tempted to do multiple entries per week. That might seem crazy since I do work a lot, but not all entries have to be written ones. I mean, I have been wanting to make videos for a while, so when I do upload something, there’ll be an entry about it so I can keep everything organized here. Plus, when I do create that podcast I’ve been wanting to do, installments of that will also count as entries. And of course, there’s always going to be more announcement entries like this, plus other Behind-the-scenes type of things. After all, the idea is to not just create stuff, but also show a little more of me, my process, and other thoughts.

I’m sure there’s some concern that this would mean reaching milestones would be “easier/quicker” and someone might say, “This isn’t an actual written blog entry, it’s just a video upload. It shouldn’t count,” or something along those lines. And I agreed with that because it has been a concern of mine as well. This is why I have a spreadsheet where I can keep track of everything. I showed it a while back on my Instagram page. This way, I can keep count of not just the amount of written entries, but also release dates and additional notes. In addition to this, I also have another spreadsheet where I can look at the amounts of entries at a quick glance. Thus, I will easily be able to keep track of the amount of video uploads when those do become a thing. In other words… I got this y’all!

All this is exciting and I’m eager to really go all-out. But for now, I’ll keep things simple and start small. I do have one specific idea for written entries that I actually brainstormed a while back that could be done in a reasonably efficient manner. I’m thinking I want to try it next week. I’m calling it a “Daily/Nightly Thought Log,” but we’ll see if I come up with a name for it. Either way, you can be on the lookout for that.

I’m really glad to be doing this. It’s not just about growing as a creator, but also because I’m growing my social circle as I mentioned earlier. I started talking to someone at work who knows a person who does videography (and funnily enough, that person reminds me of me). And there are others too! A few co-workers dabble in things like music, painting, and even meditation. This year already feels like it’ll be a big shift in direction, but at the same time, it’s a shift that makes sense for me on a personal level. Things will be different, but in a good way.

My hope isn’t shattered like it was last year when the pandemic hit. It’s definitely regrowing and in a new light. And more importantly… I’m ready to take it easy on myself and have fun. Hopefully, when I do meet those who want to be a part of it, they’ll remind me of this too. I’ve stressed about all that aforementioned stuff long enough, and I feel like those things and more have happened in order to make me realize what I really need to focus on. And no matter what, things will be okay.

So let’s have fun again. I’ll see ya when I see ya!