Well okay maybe I do have a little too many potential things on my mind as far as content goes. But right now, the question on my mind is what do I want to do? Should I replace certain blog series with videos so I could do visual gags to get my ideas across? I’m already working on scripts for projects, but I also still love writing entries on here. Then there are some admittedly ambitious things I want to write here much like how I have more ambitious video projects, but I temporarily set those ideas aside to do something more feasible. And as if that weren’t enough, I also like the idea of doing something very different in which I experiment with newer additions and elements that I’ve never implemented in other blog posts.

Yeah… there’s a lot to digest. I just want to create stuff, but I also need to not overthink things. A friend at work always encourages me to start simple, so I’m tempted to return to familiar territory.

Let’s get meta about this. Here’s my thought process throughout last week:

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Originally I thought I’d do a thought piece in which I revisit the topic of meditation. I’ve touched on it in a past entry, but I wanted to do something different. Another friend at work is into meditation too, so talking about it with her is fun and insightful and she’s actually the reason I like the idea of doing a follow-up entry. But I’d like to do something different and ask her for any suggestions on what she’d like to see me cover in said thought piece. Work has kept us pretty busy though, and of course she has her own life stuff going on. I really like this idea, it’s just a matter of finding the time to talk to her when she’s not busy. Plus, I want to go deeper into it as well, so there will definitely be a slightly more ambitious take on the topic that I could do in a third entry.

Come to think of it, it could be fun making this a recurring topic or even an all-new series here. Either way, I want to return to meditation-based writings.

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I also thought of doing another nostalgic review of something from my childhood. Then there’s the thing of choosing what to review. And though I have a solid list of options for reviews (there’s actually enough to last for a year’s worth of entries), there’s still the matter of spending enough time writing down as much stuff as possible. any pre-production stories behind the movie/show, what led to its creation, people involved, “Where are they now?” type of stuff on actors, initial reception, everything. That information that can take a while to research. And though I’ve always loved learning about all that, many of my longer shifts from work drain serious energy out of me to the point where I don’t feel like reading much and I end up resting or trying to take my mind off things.

But I do love the idea of doing more pop culture writings (be they reviews, commentary pieces, etc.), so this is something I’m strongly considering. 

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Another thing I realized is that it’s been a while since I’ve written an installment of Astonishing Reveries. For those who are new to the blog, that is a series in which I look back on unusual childhood daydreams, talk about them, probe the logic (or lack thereof) behind them, and make silly lighthearted jabs at my childhood self while doing so. They’re fun to write and I do have a list of various daydreams (including some recent ones). It’s just a matter of choosing which one I want to write about and then going all-out.

I have a couple specific reveries on my mind, but the other entry ideas kept fighting for my attention throughout the week. There’s been a lot of mental ping pong going on. Naturally, I want to do all of these entries and I will, but I need to figure out which one I want to start with and just focus on that until it’s at least outlined and fleshed out in a first draft. I probably just need to calm my mind and then choose the thing that stands out the most.

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And of course, there are video scripts I’ve been working on. They will be relatively simple for me to start with and will provide a behind-the-scenes look at my process. I initially wanted to begin with fun original videos, but it’s been a while since I’ve produced something (most of the times I’d do test footage as a means of practicing new hardware and learning software).

The scripts are coming along nicely and they’re in the writing & refining stage. Other scripts are a little bit more ambitious, but what I’m working on right now is very doable and won’t require too much other than good time spent ironing out all the details. When I think about it, this is the perfect stepping stone and it feels right to do this. Plus, it will lead into other types of videos once I get into the groove of things.

Other scripts are for movie projects, but because of that, it’s obvious that I need to wait a bit and do shorter things before tackling a two hour or 90 minute feature. Still, it’s fun to write ideas as they come to me and these scripts are on my mind a lot.

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And outside of the creative stuff, I’ve mostly been treating myself better. I do still have some moments where I feel distant from others and/or old unwanted thoughts enter my mind, but overall I’m better at going easy on myself. Making more time for video games is fun, my love for anime is rekindled, I’m watching other shows as well, meditation is keeping me more centered at night, and, of course, I always like talking to friends from work. They’re usually busy, but I still like making more friends and talking with others.

Then there’s the whole going-vegan thing that’s keeping me busy. That could be something I may talk about in a blog entry, but for now I’ll say that I really like learning new recipes and cooking with healthy plant-based foods.

Behind all that, I’m always thinking about where I’m at with my personal development and what I can do to take it further. I know where I want to go, but I often think about things that remind me of the life I want. I may not have a lot of it right now, but I’m getting there. I won’t be a work-in-progress forever.

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This is a somewhat lengthier behind-the-scenes entry than the other ones, but this was meant to take y’all into my thought process as of late. As always, I’ll let you know about anything else on social media. So until next time, be good to yourselves and be healthy.

Take care, and I’ll see you next time!