It certainly feels like this has happened a lot. Obviously, life is a priority. Work is a priority. Fun and following your passion is especially a high priority. But combining all of those priorities into one actionable thing you can easily do? Heh, easier said than done. Something like that that’s worth doing is not easy. But I do feel like condensing those things down into something doable can be possible.

For me, there’s definitely a lot. Blogging has always been fun, and I will always love expressing myself here. Lately, though, something else has had me in its clutches in the best possible way.

I had a feeling that once I’d start creating Tiktok content, I wouldn’t write anymore (or at the very least, not as much as before). And it’s understandable, I always intended to move into video production and make it a part of my whole content plan. Yet despite still having lots of rough drafts here and tons of blog post concepts in other productivity websites/apps, is there still really a place for it? Is it worth doing when I know I’d rather film something?

That has been on my mind lately, especially with the 9 year anniversary of the blog coming up. And a part of me does feel dry. I don’t wanna say bad, but just dry. Dry from not having written full blog posts for a while. Because even though I’m having more fun filming and uploading Tiktoks, I do miss that process and feeling of sitting down to write a good satisfying blog entry from start to finish. And while there are lots of developments with A.I that could help me do it all without having to put much effort, I’m not too fond of that idea. A.I is cool and could play a part in generating headlines or assisting with the copywriting side of things, but I’ve always been after a very specific way of how I like to express myself (see the “Expression” entry here).

It’s always been based on certain things that have caught my spirit and tenacity, yet also having a vibe of its own. And it has my personality too, of course. Between all that, there’s still a sense of candidness akin to hanging out with a good friend, pop culture thoughts, musings, humor, intrigue, even self-growth-related concepts and words of wisdom. And even though A.I could probably help with that, I know there would be missed opportunities from not doing it myself. A.I couldn’t fully replicate that.

So when I say all that, it makes me realize how much I do miss this. Ultimately, it comes down to having to balance time spent working, enough time for my life and fun, but also time for content creation through Tiktok as well as this. I also have ideas on creating a separate website for what I’m calling my new era of work (that being a website of me as a full-on professional content creator/actor/influencer/online personality). I still have steps to take so I can get closer to being all that and having things to make it happen (demo reel footage, headshot photo, etc.), but I’m always working on myself in ways to show I am embodying all that.

It’s definitely a journey that’s had its lulls, but in the recent months, I’ve been going through a lot that has really shifted my perspective multiple times. And behind all the stuff you see on the surface, be it here or on my other platforms, there’s always been that thing that drives me no matter what tries to slow me down. What it is is something I’m still figuring out how to describe (or if I even can describe it). But all I do know is that giving up has never crossed my mind (except for that night when I had the panic attack that changed everything).

I’d say this feels like a good stopping point, but it’s not a stop so much as it is a pause. I mean, I gotta get my beauty sleep at some point. Joking aside, I wanted to take a moment to touch on recent things and how it’s affected this little section of the internet. Will this blog continue? Will it become something else entirely different as I go further with making my passion into a full reality?

It’s all up in the air, but one thing is for sure… I’m not going anywhere.

Thanks for sticking around y’all, I’ll be seeing ya soon.