The more I think about vivid feelings and images, the more I realize I’ve actually been becoming what I call That Ideal Me in the recent years rather than just envisioning it.

Thus, it’s time to go into what I’ve been feeling lately. And since I’ve had the idea to take an existing subject from a past entry (or an entire entry itself) and revisit it, the timing is perfect. That said, here’s a link to the first entry of My On-Going Evolution for those who’d like to see how it started.

Let’s do this.

Self-Discovery

At the time of writing that first installment, I would describe myself as exploratory and inquisitive in that, “I still feel fresh out of high school and am finding my place,” sort of way. Right now, I actually still feel a bit like that, but more in an, “I have a better sense of myself, I know the kind of people I want/need in my life, and I’m actually closer to that desired place but am still inquisitive enough to find out what to do next,” kind of way. Yeah that’s quite a mouthful, but that’s how I am with words sometimes. Or a lot of times. Yeah I do that a lot here. Aren’t you glad I’m not doing talk radio?

Anyways, I also look back and realize how my sensibilities have gone further in terms of writing and expressing my thoughts. The idea is still the same, especially in terms of maintaining my stream-of-consciousness series Mingled up Musings; but I’ve definitely evolved in terms of presenting my whole self in more ways. Writing Mingled up Musings as well as more focused thought pieces (plus introspective pieces) has helped me arrive at many realizations.

As a result of doing that, I’ve learned that I finally see myself in a more positive light, having let go of many negative thoughts. I even grew a better understanding of why certain communicative elements & writing styles have intrigued me. In turn, I’ve learned why and how they allow me to explore and showcase my personality. I even decided to do something with that knowledge and work on guides to teach people what I’ve learned.

The Video Phase

Then there’s the video side of this. When I started filming Tiktoks, I was able to play around with my sensibilities through improvised ideas that helped me figure out how to do my thing in short videos. It was inevitable that I would making videos again (I used to make some in high school), so adapting my style to a new kind of audience has been rewarding. And although my online activity has had some lulls here and there, the feeling for doing it is still prominent. Because now I know how to go further and make the leap to longer bigger video projects (and of course, feature films too).

A lot of the creative stuff has played a part in my on-going evolution, and for good reason. Just like doing these blog posts, creating videos has helped me explore myself. That makes it not only creative, but personal too. This seems to have resonated with others too. At one point, I made this video that showed me realizing something pretty substantial for me. I’ll let the video speak for itself, but for added commentary, it’s a realization that although you may have to take a sidestep away from a passion, you can still take your passion with you.

@kaseylewis

A lot of times, you have to step back and look at your goals to remind yourself what’s important. Whether that means walking away from a negative environment, taking a pause from your passions, or both, you have to do something big to move forward. But that doesn’t mean you can’t take your passion with you. Never lose your passion, it’s what drives you! šŸ™‚ #fyp #foryou #montage #life #goals #motivation #doyou #yougotthis #seizetheday

ā™¬ Sweet Disposition FeelingBlew – Feelingblew

Someone in the comments said they really needed that reminder, and knowing it helped them gave me a nice feeling that it wasn’t just something I did to change things up. It was based on what I was feeling in that moment, so seeing how that resonated with someone showed me that there’s more to me than just entertainment.

I also made the following video in which I took another sidestep to do something personal, reflecting on self-growth concepts I touched on earlier. When I was re-watching it recently, it reminded me of what I see as My Ideal Self, and how far I’ve come along.

@kaseylewis

When you want to change your life, you need to do something different. Take action, and go big. #fyp #foryou #skincare #routine #makeup #mentalhealth #personalgrowth #life #confidence #beautytok #selfcare #youdoyou #selfimage

ā™¬ A warm piano instrumental ballad(808701) – NOPPO MUSIC

Going Big

And now, in stepping closer towards long sought-after goals (creative and personal), I’ve learned that I can let go of more as I pursue bigger things. Not only that, but it has helped me make choices that enable me to grow my resources and my social circle so I can be around those with similar passions.

Where will it take me next? There’s only one way to find out, and that is to just focus on doing what I call The Me Thing – writing and getting all these ideas out in many forms. More blog posts, more video concepts, and much more overall activity. Creativity is personal growth and vice versa, and that’s why people shouldn’t take either nor both for granted. A world without these online platforms would make for a world where many people (younger ones especially) would not be able to express and discover themselves as they find their desired people who are looking to do the same. We need this.

Making these videos and watching others’ content has helped me and others get through dark times. And regardless of what happens, there will always be a place and way to keep on doing this. We’ll see where it goes as we keep going.

Thanks for reading!