5/19

The word pristine came to mind for some reason while listening to Gex videos. I didn’t bother to look up the word though, I know the meaning of it. I was too busy reminiscing about the Gex video games and enjoying the humor in them. As I reflected on this, I realized how much it shaped my sensibilities in entertainment. As Gex would say, it feels so good on my bald lizard head!

I was also thinking about cerebral elements in my blog posts, wondering how I could play them up in upcoming entries along with intricate videos. There could be a lot of options to do this, but I also don’t want to overthink it.

Later on, in the early evening, I was diving back into tutorials for video editing and motion graphics. This reminded me not only of the fun I had from playing around with that a while ago, but it also reminded me that I could do it as a side hustle. With enough practice, I could do it. And while acting and creating films & video content would still be at the fore-front of this field, it’s still a good idea.

I’m also feeling less of a need for tolerating limitations and more of the urge to just jump in and do something. Action is on my mind, and as I think about my purpose of channeling the authentic Me so I can be that to its fullest, I’m dedicating more time to this than ever before (and it was already pretty important for me). Basically, I’m at a deep dive and I’m learning that I’m capable of way more. “Big” is subjective, and I’m ready to go big so I can go BIGGER. All that matters right now is getting started.

No-brainer Central. ’nuff said.

5/20

When life gives you an unexpected lemon, it’s more bitter and sour than sweet unless you put sugar on top. And if you do that, you’re bound to develop an addiction. Why? Pffffft, because lemonade is that good. But if you never liked lemonade, you can drink something else. As I told myself that, I realized I was pretty thirsty and had to get a drink. Lesson? Don’t think about lemonade when you know you have a weakness for citrus.

But hey, it’s better than drinking the tap water at Jerry Garcia’s.

(Evening)

I was about to turn in, and thoughts about setting up an LLC have been swirling around in my head like Helen Hunt in Twister. I gotta make sure I have the right finances set aside before I pay to register it but at least I have the name for it. I won’t say much about it, but it’s probably early to do this. Once I get some Youtube videos going and have a short film ready to release, I’ll set it up. I feel like there’s something symbolic and personal with meaning that could work better as a unique name, but at least I have one on the top of my head right now. Whatever that other choice is, though, is something I’ll have to discover – probably in an unexpected place.

5/21

The full “I’m back” feeling is here, and it’s pretty nice. I still have challenges, of course, but if there’s anything that panic attack from a while back taught me, it’s that I am strong enough to fight through challenges and emerge victorious.

I’m excited to do everything again. The ideas I have are perfect to start with, but most importantly, they’re doable and finishable. Doing is the key here, because I’m tired of thinking about doing. This isn’t just for the cool creative stuff on here, it’s for everything. Taking initiative and putting out the intention to make long sought-after goals a reality is something I’ve been doing more. It’s only a matter of time before someone notices and wants in.

5/22

Spent good time making progress in video editing (thank you DaVinci Resolve), so the idea of turning my thoughts into videos is here. And as I looked at some past ideas I’d jotted down, I realized that the simpler the idea the better. This way, doing them as weekly uploads will be more feasible.

I later watched some reaction videos of The Mask and Jurassic Park. Realizing that people missed out on classics that I grew up makes me all the more glad I was born at the time that I was. And with all the feelings I get from those movies, it’s nice to see others feel the same things. Those movies and more have always inspired me to get into film, so it’ll be fun capturing those elements in my work.

But first, simplicity.

5/23

I started contemplating about what it would be like to travel across the country to find the longest fries out there. I can never escape these wild thoughts, even while eating burgers and fries as a quick lazy dinner (I do love me some leftovers though). As I thought about this, I thought back to other things that have made me want to go on impromptu road trip adventures across the country. Once I’m good to go, I’ll seriously do it.

But if someone has already found the longest fry in the USA, I’ll just do road trips to other destinations.

(Evening)

I was reading about strange school “rules” from an MSN article, and I learned that one woman said the kids in her school were not allowed to say they were on their periods or anything about menstruation. She then mentioned that the teacher told them to call it “drinking the moon,” a euphemism she’d never heard before nor since. I feel like we should start using it as a euphemism just to mess with her.

Also, I came to the realization that the name Glennis is so wretched that even lesbians don’t wanna use it.* Someone wanna tell me if that’s true or not?

5/24

Took a moment to think about the fun I’m having with these thought logs. What I’m liking about this format is not only the format itself, but also the fact it’s getting me to write more overall. I’d already been attempting this randomly in numerous notebooks and notepads that I often carry around with me like I’m Harriet the Spy or Mitch from Dirty Work, but having scheduled times to jot these things down makes me feel like I’m accomplishing something.

Felt pretty good in terms of productivity. I finished a recent blog entry that is the first of what I’m calling Revisited Entries. The idea is inspired by James Rolfe’s “revisited games” episodes of his Angry Video Game Nerd character. I’ll definitely do more as ideas come to me when reflecting on past entries/topics.

(Evening)

I started thinking about the ratio of thoughts versus actions in these thought logs. This was always a concern when I first tried it a few years ago. I can very easily go into my thoughts and relevant subjects/feelings and such (much like what I do with Mingled up Musings), but I never wanted to describe what I do in the days/nights and narrate actions in these entries. That is inevitable and can help provide context for some of the thoughts I log, but keeping a higher ratio of thoughts and feelings is always the goal since that’s the idea of this format.

Really, thinking about this aspect is what makes me want to try these thought logs (or something inspired by them) as a video series. The best way to try it is to just try it.

5/25

After a brief pause, I’m making Tiktoks again and it feels nice. Filming and posting one makes me want to film and upload another, but I’m learning how to batch film things to make this more efficient. That chain reaction feeling gives me the drive to keep going, and perhaps I’ll save the more production-involved ideas and techniques for Youtube videos. Thinking strategically means creating strategically, and I’m already feeling the urge to keep going. I feel like how I did when I was making videos for fun in high school, only I’ve evolved and have better technology to do this. And that’s pretty cool.

(Evening)

Maybe it’s just because it’s the evening now and I feel spent in some weird way, but I feel as if I shouldn’t burnout from making ambitious moves. Which makes sense, I shouldn’t put the wheel before the horse. You gotta tame it and make sure it’s taking baby steps. And in this case, I’m the horse that’s taken its baby steps. Now I’m ready to roam the larger lands and see where they take me.

Still, I’m hungry for more. It makes sense why I want to tackle bigger things. I started making Tiktoks almost a couple years ago, so I’m a firm believer in getting results with simple doable actions that lead to evolved-yet-still-doable actions that, in turn, lead to the next stage. In short, mini-goals that lead to a super-goal.

Now if you excuse me, I gotta find someone who’ll give this horse some hay. See you next week!