This is a late entry (May 27th is the direct 10 year mark since launch), and there a lot of reasons for it. For starters, mental health and personal realizations were going through yet another shift, just like the state of my interests. Not the interests themselves, but where they were and where they are right now. And right now, they feel different. Not different in a bad way, just different. More evolved. They’re still very much here because I’m still passionate about creating content. So now, after 10 years, I’m ready to do this.

But first, I feel like a song should set the tone. Because why not.

New Territory

Originally, this was going to be like any other milestone/reflection piece where I look back at what I’ve done and simply reflect on it while giving a brief overview on things behind-the-scenes. Then I thought of doing something different in the form of a top 10 list, where I would list my top 10 favourite things I’ve created (including blog entries and Tiktok videos). Then I realized an entry like that might be better as its own separate entry. Meanwhile, I was wanting to do more with the Thought Log format. And lastly, I briefly thought about doing a video to act as the 10 Year Anniversary piece, to visually look back on my growth with my own added commentary.

The more I kept thinking about what to do, the more I realized I wanted to change things up big time. And the more I did that, the more I was no longer thinking about just writing. I knew I wanted to finally make Youtube videos, so I took a good look at everything I wanted to do. And I do mean everything. It took a lot of idea dissection to figure out what is most-doable, what is more ambitious, what to simplify, and what to build towards. Not only that, it also took more introspection to figure out why I was feeling like I had to change things up. Creatively, and personally too.

The personal side of things is something I’d rather go into for a future Introspective piece. But creatively, I decided to finally make my first Youtube video and then see how it feels. So I did. I wrote it, filmed it, edited the footage, and once I upload it I will make a post about it in the Video Content category. As for how I feel?

It’s satisfying. I’ve always loved seeing and feeling my sensibilities evolve, and since I’m only just getting started, it’ll be exciting to see where they go and how they will grow further from here. Does it feel fitting for me since 10 years have passed upon launching this blog? In a way it does, and while I do think about what could’ve been, it doesn’t bother me. Instead, I’m using those “what could have been” type of thoughts as motivation.

Going Big

And now, as I think about what to say next, I know that I’m ready to make bigger moves. Everywhere. Here and There, creatively, professionally, and especially personally. I still think of those words that the patient said to me in the IOP session which simply are, “Go big.” And while it’s not going to be easy, it already feels better knowing that I am taking chances in the areas where I seek growth and happiness.

Ten years ago, I didn’t quite think about where I’d be in X amount of years. All I knew is that I wanted to upgrade my setup, make videos, keep writing, and do some films. And ya know something? I have been doing that. I booked a kickass background acting gig in a feature-length film (still have to wait before I can talk about more details), got an awesome starring role in a short film thanks to local filmmakers, made a lot of fun Tiktoks, finally got a better system for video editing, have a Youtube video right around the corner, and I am still writing. Scripts, journal entries, more blog post drafts, even stand-up comedy material (yeah, that’s another goal). They’re all here and are coming soon.

Heh, I guess this is still like the past reflection pieces I’ve done – but with a more personal touch. It’s shorter than I intended too, but that’s pretty fitting. And it’s not the last thing I’ll write. There’s still plenty more to do, experience, and share with all of you. I’m finally going big as Me to my fullest and then talking about it.

Thanks for sticking around everyone, I’ll tell you all about it in my upcoming work (written and video form, plus some surprises). See ya then!