I almost had the urge to start this off with, “Dear reader…,” but frankly, that would feel weird. It’s not like me, come to think of it. So why mention that I almost had the urge to do it?

I mean, if you know me, you know I get pretty meta in my posts. But addressing it like this while throwing in a vague movie reference feels like a good way to break the ice. So I got that going for me which is nice.

Anyway, I didn’t want to do something derivative. That’s been done to death. It feels like it’s time to go into my head for a bit and take on a different angle behind what I’ve been doing, what I’ve learned, and where I see myself.

So what are the answers to these?

To start, I’m in a state of doing that borders on being familiar, yet new at the same time. It’s like an Age of Experimenting (ayyyyy there’s the title drop), where the experiment is either…

What I’m tampering with

or

Me. It’s Me. Hi. The experiment is me.

And when I’m the “experiment,” I feel less like a hamster in a cage and more like a kid who’s just been given odd yet unique toys to play with. Only now, the toys are something I’d been chasing for a while and am ready to REALLY take further. These toys are, for lack of a better word, all sorts of seemingly random notes I’d been adding to and refining over the years that will help me better understand myself, what I want to get across, and how I can share it.

Both of these ways of looking at it stand true, but I quite like the idea that I am the experiment. It’s weird, but as with the meta thing from earlier, it’s uniquely me. After all, the means in which I do this (and other related fields of content creation) all come from my fascination for how I like to use words to shape something. Not what somebody else does with it, but what I do with it.

And while I could look at my words as the experiment, I and my thoughts/ideas are still the things that the words represent, making me feel like the product of my own experiment. I’m like a specimen that tests what I have been taking apart so I can put it to use, unravel it once again, and then let it become whatever it becomes so I can move onto the next thing.

“So, what did we learn today?”

In terms of what I’ve learned, there’s definitely a lot. I’ve learned I’m more capable than I realize. People I meet in-person who’ve seen my Tiktoks, for instance, tell me how much they enjoy them and what they like. A couple of these people have even told me that the more cinematic ones really have an element that makes them happy to see what I can do in regards to production and telling a story. And while I take pride in what I’ve creative, I know there’s still more I can do that I want to do.

In a way, that was already an early Age of Experimenting, but now the experimenting is about taking it further, jumping across more unique areas and familiar territory in a newer & more modern light. Which basically means I’m going back to my roots, but also going forward into new territory with my roots so that I’m adapting to different platforms and mediums.

Which brings me (partially) to where I see myself. I don’t want to sound derivative, as that gets old fast. But to keep it brief, I see myself finally embracing things rather than avoiding them. I certainly won’t let those things slow me down. Movement is something I always prefer anyway, it wouldn’t make sense to slow down when I’m just revving up the engine again. Putting the petal to the medal was a long time in the making, but considering the mental growth I went through in getting there, it feels like that was the start I needed before going full throttle. And after taking a good moment to myself, it’s really just about doing this again. I don’t wanna say what I’ve said before. I just want to say more, and it’s time to do that.

So stick around, and I’ll bring you more – very soon. And now for our commercial break!